In the midst of daily madness with reminders, emails, cell phones, social metworking, it's hard to be joyful. My brain is constantly bombarded with traffic and mess and chaos. My focus is hazy and I crash into everything. The wall caves in and I'm looking for the thing I've lost. The wall has been caving in for awhile. I've finally realized that wall was one I built a long time ago with great care, piece by piece. I have been stonewalled in here a long time and then one day I realized I was alone. Desperately I tried to claw through, then climb through, then break through.. still nothing. Still no one. Today as I'm writing this, I realized the wall was broken in pieces. I don't know how, and I don't know when, I'm just glad to be free. Now my goal is to pick up all these broken pieces of my soul and make them into something useful and beautiful. What a mess I've gotten into. What a joy it is to be free and to be truly known... discovered.